Friday, January 28, 2005

Nobody Knows

whenever i start thinking about my joy, my sadness, my life..i'm so depressed to face it
but i should be more thankful because i been surrounded by caring friends and start learning how to appreciate those peoples in my life...

NOBODY KNOWS: The Tony Rich Project
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought You'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Deepest Sympathies

yesterday was a hard time for me..I rushed from Shah Alam to HKL (Kuala Lumpur Hospital) to visit my ex-workmate, Zulkarnain. Zul was admitted into General ICU after he was hitted by a car and a lorry in tragic accident last 2 week.
He was in coma, unconcious due to serious internal injuries. According to his mother, if Zul's condition is not progressing so well, he might be recover from irreversible coma after 3 month!

I was so sad and I remembered a time that we were used to play badminton and he often teasing me...;(
I pray for Allah faith to keep him survive and hope he will wake up someday and smiling at me...

thank to Zam for ur guide and my dear as usual for sticking to me!

Friday, January 21, 2005

too Fast,too Furious

What a day... woke up late this morning(again?!!)
catch a cab from MO to Bangsar then another route from Kerinchi to my office(SS14)...anyway thank dear coz willing to accompany me and i really apologized for stealing your precious morning sleep...ZzzZzZZ~~zZZ

tonite i going back to Ipoh with my little sister and big brother as tomorrow we gonna celebrate Hari Raya Haji (Aidiladha)
Really hope that we won't trap in the middle of heavy traffic congested along North South highway.

I'll be back to work next Wednesday, take a short break this month
Happy holiday and Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all my Muslim friends

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Mood Pagi

...benda paling tough nak buat adalah mendapatkan mood pagi, sesetengah orang berupaya memulakan hari baru mereka dengan begitu ceria, ya..tanpa sebarang tekanan...

dengan hanya satu senyuman, ciuman, salam, pelukan atau reading new email, sms bisa membangkitkan mood pagi.

for me, apa yang aku buat pagi-pagi especially before melangkah masuk kerja, my green button is pick up a morning call and hear the lovely voice...wah..wahhh sudah cukup buat aku bersemangat dan tersenyum sepanjang ari...:)


Saturday, January 15, 2005

Living Denial!!

There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming
cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Love is sacrifice. If u choose a wrong path in your love life u will definitely end up by losing someone in your relationship.

But what if, on certain circumstances you might have an option to do…either u will get stuck or u decide to runaway when things get tangled.

a) choose to leave him rather to let him suffer for the seek of happiness.
b) I DON’T CARE! I deserve to be loved

As the time goes by, I realized that I’m hurting myself! I’m hurting himself too

...aku rasa tiada +, - bila aku pikir tentang sayang dia kat aku...maceh yekk:)

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

PERFECT (special dedicated to him)

2nd day training was over...3 more days to go...

you, just listen to this song

PERFECT smashing-pumpkins

I know we’re just like old friends
We just can’t pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can’t help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you’re just like me
Next time I promise we’ll be
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it’s not the end
We’ll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You’ll see, I promise we’ll be
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we meet

You know this has to be
We always we’re so free
We promised that we’d be
Perfect more words to say, no more tears to cry, terpulang lah nak percaya ke tidak...dah janji akan bagi yang terbaik...dah cuba semua sekali...

sopia, ko ingat ko sorang ajer dok risau, aku nie dah cukup cuak dari bulan lepas!??!!!!!!!uUuUuu, sendirik buat sendirik tanggung!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

today until this Friday, i have to undergo OptimalJ + J2EE multitier enterprise applications training..


thank to Ina lend your pc

...dia dah pegi....gua sedih giler nieeeeeeeeeee!!!macam nak mati rasa nyer:((

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Kiss~ Because I'm a Gurl

...i was busy past 2 days attended CMMI awareness training that covered SDLC and SMLC development process...Quite bored and sleepy session!

I love this Korean song and its music video was so romantic acted by Goo Hye-Jin and special appearance, Shin Hyun Joon.
I remember the time he asked me "Jesse, ingat tak lagu ape nie...?"

Kiss - Because I'm a Girl

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanungu
marur midosso negen hengbogiosso

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyodago
nunchiga obnun nan nur boche giman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

[narration] Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde

sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso


I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

i heard that if you give up things too easily to a man,
he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
since I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[narration] Hey babe
the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Wednesday, January 05, 2005 MSS 2005 Gathering

MSS Friends Posted by Hello

MSS gath Posted by Hello

02 January 2005 (Sunday): Brisdale Hotel

It was successful event handled by Sifoo's krew and moderator.
Thank and Congratulations to Krew for ur hard dear exike, Nuppy, Cadburry,Elita, Tulangs, Anep(Volcom), King Eyra, Vyruz, Muid etc
view event pic (courtesy: Didiz)
Since I joined, (if I'm not mistaken..early 2002), my circle of friends have grown bigger. I treat them as my best buddies and treasure this friendship very much!!

Let me tell briefly about>> is a portal and forum site that becoming a center of resource and inspiration amongst local graphic activist as well as multimedia designer. This portal provide a lot of tips and tutorial not only for newbie but also graphic hardcore. The founder keen to use Bahasa Malaysia as a medium and until to date it offically has 18,047 registered members.
Get to know better? Let' s come and join us!

...:)) sukaaaaaaaaaa sangat sangat...kalau boleh nak repeat those sweet memories tq

Saturday, January 01, 2005

2005: Resolution

Happy New Year '05 everyone...

I planned so many things throughout this year but most of it I couldn't achieve.
I wanna start off new beginning of my be more committed and sincere in my relationships, keep focus on career, possess my own driving licence, invest my money for wise saving and never EVER left 2- 4 - 4 - 3- 4!!!

thank to my beloved ones, my bestest friends esp Sofea, Anim, new colleague-Bee, Yeng etc... and my family who has supported and stood by me most of the times...THANK YOU

let Allah hold my good faith...Insyaallah

...dia sangat jujur dan baik, bahagianya dapat insan seperti dia!!