Thursday, March 31, 2005


I've been busy undergo Java training for past few days. No time to update my blog.
Meanwhile, I have shifted to new place. No longer sit next to my lovely BEE.. I got new neighbours- Meng and Kenny. I gonna missed my old place and Bee too. Bee gave me one special cute message..Thank Bee, I really appreciated it!

Starting tomorrow, internet connection will be cutting down in my office. Management have decided to authorize only few terminal to control the abusing of internet accesssing! This news been spread since last week but we're not pretty sure whether they will enforcing this policy more YM, CHATTING, BLOG, FORUM, WEB SURFING...ETC
ARGHHHHHH!!! HEADACHE, such a nightmare


off topic//

petang nie nak jumpa kengkawan kat LOTUS..lama gak tak jumpa derang
tapi rasa nyer ari ahad nie kena datang kerjalah..kalau aku datang ahad nie...hermmm cukup cukup 3 minggu straight kerja on sunday..nak buat camner presentation next week

semalam ade meeting ngan geng ugly krew discuss pasal pi air terjun JERANGKANG..16-17 april nie...WAHH BESTTTT BESTTTT..nak target peserta ~40 org..sure happening..nie first time ako nak camping dlm hutan..teruja beb
tak sabar sabar ako nak pegi outdoor nie..hopefully semua planning akan berjalan lancar

dan "dia" kesayangan gue sentiasa ader- 360 degree..terima kasih yek
ingat pesanan lu..pikir positif n lu pun kerja tu kuat kuat sikit!!!

ok chiow!

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

-- miss him even more now n all the sweetest things --

Monday, March 21, 2005

NO White Flag

I left my blog about a week...most probably there was no exicting story to share

on Saturday I stayed at my sis's house, celebrating Yuyin Besday Bash..helping my mother preparing all delicious food, refreshment and entertained the guests..tiresome
weather conditions nowadays is soooo HOT and humid. I can't even stand with it, in fact been suffered with migrain for 3 days!!!

on Sunday I came to office to finish some assignment of my project...few of my workmates also came although they were absolutely not expecting my presence!

deepest in my heart, I miss him so much..he been out somewhere, getting part on adventurous activity..I was so concerned about his safety but I knew he will enjoying most of the time there...
I ruined everything when I broke my promise to meet him by the time he arrived Kuala Lumpur yesterday...I was in Planet watched Line 6 performing party...I guess he will be arrived a little bit late and take it for granted...that was my fault..I'm sorry

I realized I creating so much pain to him in this relationship and don't wanna torture him no more...I have to choose, this love will slip away someday...
I miss him so much and all our greatest memories....I WANT TO HAVE HIM BUT I CAN'T! there is a reason behind it, thats all i can say ;((

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it,
well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Monday, March 14, 2005


the time is over...past...assumed that a decision have been made
I didn't got a chance to show any action!

for him...
"Aku Cinta Kau dan Dia"

Hancur hatiku mengenang dikau
Menjadi keping-keping setelah kau pergi
Tinggalkan kasih sayang
Yang pernah singgah antara kita
Masihkah ada sayang itu

Memang salahku, yang tak pernah bisa
Meninggalkan dirinya 'tuk bersama kamu
Walau 'tuk t'rus bersama'kan ada hati yang 'kan terluka
Dan ku tahu kau tak mau

Sekali lagi maafkanlah
Karena ku cinta kau dan dia
Maafkanlah ku tak bisa
Tinggalkan dirinya

Mungkin tak mungkin 'tuk terus bersama
Jalani semua cinta yang tlah dijalani
Tapi bila itu yang
Kau pikir yang terbaik untukmu
Bahagiaku untuk dirimu

Simpan sisa sisa cerita cinta berdua
Walau tak tersisa cerita cinta berdua

Still love him in my mind
Still love him forever

Thursday, March 10, 2005

a week?

within a week a I have to make be or not to be!
gotta be firm, hoping I won't get tangle or regret with my own choice...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

love again???

me...?still heart broken....

LOVEis two people sharing one heart
LOVEis seeing your face everywhere
LOVEis making you feel special
LOVEis having your love in my heart
LOVEis when I cant get you out of my head
LOVEis difficult to analyze
LOVEis putting you in the spotlight
LOVEis sigh

Monday, March 07, 2005

first LOVE

me..?heart broken:<

the last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song


March 2005’... time is flying

Past two week I spent my time “yumcha” with my close buddies, Sopia, Anim, Dea, Wina and I met Mimi & Ayen too…yesss, Ayen.. long time I haven’t met him..he’s so skinny and cute!

I realized that my brutal honesty and lack of tact may hurt others, finally end up by losing him...this is time to release, to reveal...
I’m not closing myself anymore, he is innocent, treat me well enough and I do admit that I won’t be a sincere person as I am today if I didn’t met him..and the reason is you too...
Thank you, sayang

No doubt.. I learnt a lot from him, he do care much about me that no one ever to build relationship with pure trust and believe towards each other.. . I miss him a lot by now, he is my friend my best friend and used to be my soulmate once…I pray to GOD that our relationship will be keep safe until my last breath...AMIN

Thank for everything my dear ;)