Thursday, June 23, 2005

pernah tak...?part II

pernah tak setiap malam kamu bermimpi tentang perkara yang sama tentang seseorang atau sesuatu keadaan...bersambungan, berlarutan sampai fobia hendak melelapkan mata?

sendiri tak pasti samada mimpi itu indah atau sebaliknya...tapi ia terkesan dalam diri...
aku jenis jarang bermimpi..kalau tidur akan tidur terus..
tapi kebelakangan ini sahaja aku alami perkara sebegini mungkin disebabkan 'internal pressure' dan 'workload' yang terlampau lampau, keletihannya terbawa bawa hingga ke alam tidur...

...biarlah mimpi itu datang, sekurang kurangnya aku masih berpeluang ketemu dengan dia walau dalam keadaan separa mati!

apa yang ada...apa yang takada...

takada mood
takada daya
takada jawapan
takada rasa
takada tawa
takada jiwa
takada ruang
takada dia...

ada rindu
ada sedih
ada sunyi
ada kusut
ada kosong
ada bosan
ada sakit
ada jauh
ada mimpi
dan hanya ada aku...

kenapa dengan aku nie? dah gila ke?!
nak larilah lari lari lariiiiiiii

Monday, June 20, 2005


it's been quite a while I haven't spent my quality time esp during weekend doing my own
fav stuff as I've been struggling too hard on my job over past month..

yesterday I got chance to do what I really want to do...
woke up late around 12++, went to Marion Raven showcase 'Here I am' (stunning performance with new brand vocal), did some shopping spree (bought special gift to him--I love to buy stuff to person whom I care most :)),eating out, bought bouquet of red roses for only RM 4!,
nice chatting with sofea, thk dear for ur time and finally the best part was "ronda ronda"..hehehehe
yeah sofea 'so sweet' when we discovered something hidden from our sight!

Bee just returned home from the USA last week..lot of surprised
by the way thk for ur gift and remember that I alwiz pray for ur health and happiness..b brave gurl

now, I'm fighting for my love!!

A mean reply, so I scream
Another fight about nothing at all
And then we cry and forgive
Promising that we will never fall again
I know this much is true

Little by little
I think we'll understand this
Little by little
I think we'll comprehend it
Little by little
You'll take me as I am yeah
Little by little

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Zodiac Sign So True of my good friend forward this to me
read read read read

A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool , calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time.

To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set.
His voice always gentle and calm. he always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too.

When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation.

Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night. Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over.

A straight forward , no non-sense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention. He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice. If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever.

He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separate loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him.

Even he is a romantic man, he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this.

A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.

He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

A tall slim and graceful woman who walked proudly like she is walking in a beauty pageant competition. If she slips or nearly falls, she will nicely covered it up and continue with her graceful and impressive walking step. She knows how to use make up to enhance her beauty. She looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy. She will not get up set easily.

Self confident woman who belief in her own style. She will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern. She is a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt. She is an honest person and never try to cause troubles for any one. She likes to say something that you do not want to hear and yet she can say something so pleasing at the same time. Example she may say "I wish you could make more money, so you could afford better cloth, but anyway it is better this way. If you make more money you could be thinking of money too much and become greedy". She can say such thing and make you wonder if you should get up set or love her more.

She is also a free spirit and does not like to stay home. She likes to be protected, but not to give her orders. She has no respect to a weak man. If she try to over powered you, then you have to calm her down and try to control her to be in a limit by doing the same thing too. She will listen if she respect you. She likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

She is a no nonsense woman, so you will not hear she says " Guess what I will do next", or "Guess what I am thinking" because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy. If you do not understand her in this matter, you could easily break up with her. She sees problems in her love life as another funny story.
She is clumsy and it is in her nature. You may think it is cute, but for some neat guys this could be so unbearable. She is very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends. She has good taste in fine cloths, good food, first class and first services. Even a poor woman in this Zodiac will struggle to afford such good taste. She could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money. If you think of let her borrow money, think again.

She is a paranoid. If she thinks you like her, she may already think about getting marry and lost her freedom and so on and on. A jolly woman who loves sports. She is an ordinary woman who could dress like a tomboy. She has more guy friends and sometimes could act like one of a guy. She does not care about rumors, so she can get home very late and couldn't careless what her neighbor will gossip about her. She thinks either good or bad, you will know it yourself , so you should not bother what people think.

Her wit and innocent look are her charms. She is often hurts from love, but never afraid to look for a new one as if she is singing "Do that to me one more time". She likes going straight and being straight forward. She will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something. If you meet her and tell her straight what you think, she will admire you.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005


aku kenal dia since 1997..adalah dekat dekat 8 tahun
tapi dia ambil masa almost 10 years menunggu "destiny"nya

bila kita tengok couple end up dengan marriage, orang akan cakap itu jodoh mereka..
Memang jodoh manusia sejak azali telah tertulis dalam kalam yang SATU...tapi kalau kita tak cuba mencari jodoh tue berserta dengan kesungguhan pasti tidak akan membuahkan apa apa hasil...

jadi aku berdoa untuk dia, kali ini dia nampak serius.. nampak kesungguhan, kerana aku nampak bukti dengan menemani kesungguhannya untuk memiliki sesuatu...
yeah...people changes but I think everybody should change to better side

aku tumpang gembira in fact sangat gembira berkongsi rasa dengan dia..
tetap indah walau rasa yang kedua kali, felt like magic

kalau tulisan ini jadi kenyataan, dia bakal jadi pemecah tradisi di kalangan kami...
so better late than never!

anyway, thank sayang bawak gue ketemu itu CT..CT yang amat aku kagumi dengan gifted yang dianugerahkan..CT yang amat komited dengan bidang seni yang diperjuangkan..SHE'S PHENOMENAL

rindulahh..tiap saat rinduuuuuuuu

Monday, June 13, 2005


recently being so busy and haven't had much time to update my blog.

last nite I received one SMS- "short message service" from someone, first I thought it was from him but it wasn't...I ve been touched with those words..let me share with you all

"When u met a person and take them into your life,
don't treat them like a fireworks, that amazed and bring joy in just a split second.
Treat and love them like a candle, which lightened your darker times and burn thru' all yourlife lines...
coz eventhough it doesn' t bring beautiful or amazing light that can stand for a moment still it bring
more meaningful light that stayed a whole life times"

someone is ........ someone, someone is missing someone

Friday, June 03, 2005


What goes around, comes around,
What goes up, must comes down,
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me...

kita tipu dia, dia pun tipu kita.. jadi masing masing kena tipu and tertipu!!!
dia tak cerita... kita pun takan cerita..jadi kejujuran hilang..
dia cakap "katakan yang benar walaupun ia pahit" tapi selalu kebenaran buat sakit hati!!!

kesimpulannya..kalau aku buat sesuatu dishonest pada dia, aku tak boleh expect yang dia
jadi "angel" yang baik untuk aku...

maybe he also did the same thing and telling liar to me like what I did to him!
mungkin satu tahap dia cukup puas hati sebab buat benda yang aku dok buat kat dia, dalam masa yang dia pun buat kat aku juga...cuma perbezaannya aku tak tahu disebabkan aku yakin dia takan buat begitu....

well..bit confuse, we'll see how it goes, I just follow my natural instinct...